Is it really worth it?

The credential program is so darn arduous. I'm investing years into education in order to get paid little, deal with bureaucrats, test my students to death, and be told that no matter what I do, I need to do better. Seriously, is it worth it? In a year or so we are going to start trying to have a family, so when I get my credential I won't even use it. When I do go back to teaching, will things have changed so much that I'm obsolete, especially since I won't have had much teaching experience prior to having kids? I'm tired, I'm overwhelmed, I don't feel like the professors are being realistic with their work loads, and I always feel like I'm in a perpetual state of giving up. I understand the importance of making sure that teachers are qualified, but I feel like the program is a lot of pressure. I want to get everything I can out of it, but I don't feel like I am when all I'm worried about it completing an assignment rather than getting the most out of it. It's ironic that we are taught that quality versus quantity is what counts for our students, but we are expected to do quality in large quantities.

Family History

I have to do a project on family history for one of my classes, so I spent yesterday at my grandma's house in Redwood City gathering information. I loved looking at old pictures and documents about the relatives I never got to meet. At the same tim I was sad though because my generation isn't really concerned about their heritage and the people that proceeded them. I feel like learning about family is dying out and the next generations will lose the pieces of their pasts forever. I'm glad I got to spend the afternoon making Grandma happy by listening to her stories and I feel honored that I now have an insight to our family that no one else does. I hope I can pass it on.

Vacation?

I haven't blogged in awhile, but not much has happened. School has kept me very busy. I have a lot of projects due this month, and I'm trying to figure out when I'm going to get them all done. We are going to a funeral today, Grandpa's birthday tomorrow, visiting my grandma on Sunday leaving next Friday-Monday for Vegas for Mimi's birthday, and then going to Maui for a week the following weekend. So much wonderful vacation, but I have no idea when I will get all my school stuff done.